And we're baaaack.

So this blog has gone dark for 9 months. Frankly, every posting was a terribly painful experience and I suppose I lacked the fortitude to keep it alive.

For those wanting an update. I remain a skeptic. Most unfortunately, my skepticism has led to a creeping nihilism and I am unhappy. As much as I'd like to return to faith, with every passing month that seems more and more of an improbability. Yet, I *must* find faith. I'm at an age where decisions have to be made and it is impossible to make them while living a lie like this.

So we have this, yet another last ditch attempt to be brought back. I thought I'd start by discussing Tim Challies comment on my post about Genesis 1.

It strikes me as more than a little absurd that the reclaiming of your faith depends upon settlement of this apparent contradiction. If you are going to wrestle with your faith on this blog, I'd suggest you may want to examine the real heart of your battle. Call me skeptical, but I don't think any answer I or anyone else can provide to this question will help your faith very much.

I'm not sure what he finds absurd. The Bible was the basis of my faith. Since I can remember I've been taught that it was the inerrant source of revealed truth. Obviously, the inerrant source of revealed truth cannot contain factual errors such as 'the moon and birds share a firmament between waters.' Sure you may propose that 'God exists' without the use of the Bible. The most obvious way of doing that would be to evidence the necessity of a Maker. Or you might appeal to our sense of right and wrong as Lewis does in Mere Christianity. But certainly neither the existence of a Maker or our sense of right and wrong posit the Christian God anymore than they do Allah or Shiva. Without a belief in the Bible there is no credible basis for the Christian doctrines.

Also. I think I have examined the heart of my battle here. I used to believe in God but a series of realizations have ripped that faith from me. I was happier when I did believe in Him and will now do anything to convince myself, through reason, that he does exist. That's what I believe 'the heart' here to be. What more is to be said?

Lastly, it would help my faith, immeasurably, to hear a credible way of clearing up this 'firmament' issue.